Do we really have all the answers? This is something that many of us may ask ourselves and some even believe they do. Although we can never make a claim to have all the answers because as humans we are always evolving we can consciously seek within to look for the deeper truths.
As I become more open to spiritual awareness I am also learning to trust my intuition more. Some things are subtle little whispers and some signs are flat-out obvious. A few weeks ago as I drove home via the rural landscape I stopped to admire the view and I had this really strong pull to take a few days to unwind and escape into nature with nothing but me and a tent. I have no idea why that idea came to me but it was a very strong ‘knowing’ which I immediately knew I had to act on. So I went home and researched hours for a place to go where I would not be around many people camping on my own.
I found that place and 2 weeks later I was on my way with esky, tent, gas cooker and warm blankets and food. I was both excited and very nervous, having never made a trip on my own let alone put up a tent on my own or do all of the things required to camp on my own. I knew it would be a challenge which was the exact reason I knew I had to do it.
As I drove down the fire trail through the forest the butterflies were flying around in my stomach. I was almost there and no backing out now!
I found my spot all alone and set up my tent much more easily than I expected ha! Then the decision of what to do. I took a leisurely walk around the area which was right beside a picturesque river. It is almost winter so it gets dark quite early but I was able to make a fire (thank goodness) to sit by for the night.
I have always loved a fire so had no problem sitting in front of it for hours and just staring at it. It served 2 purposes, warmth and a time to reflect.
The thing about camping is it forces you to slow down. With no phone or internet access it was really just me and my thoughts. Just cooking and washing up takes a lot of time and it is almost as if it takes up a large part of your day just surviving! It felt like I was back in time, walking to get water , fill up a bucket and boil it in a saucepan several times just to wash up a few things. It was peaceful and relaxing.
Connecting to Nature
Over the next couple of days I found trails to walk and sat on a cliff top with the most beautiful view! I could have sat there for hours without getting bored. I felt connected to everything, the trees, the river, the birds and everything around me. With little else to focus on your senses become much more aware and you notice the smallest of things such as the little birds landing on a branch in front of you or the eagle circling in the sky above you. Complete and utter peace with being completely present! No past or present to worry about in that time.
I alternated between sitting right by the river and on the cliff top above it completely enjoying every moment. It made me realise what we do as humans who live unconsciously to create so much inner chaos within and out. Our own subconscious thinking is all based on stories we tell ourselves that are based on fear and not love! Imagine if we all lived in the present and didn’t project or react because of conditional patterns that we have become so accustomed to?
My only neighbours were kangaroos, birds, peacock (which circled my camp site refusing to leave lol) and other native animals. At night when I woke up in the middle of the night it was so deadly silent that the only thing I could hear was the animals in the bush behind me or kangaroos hopping around me. At first I felt a little scared being alone in the dark but then I reasoned with myself that the animals were there to protect me. ( In any case I had a blunt axe in my tent just for back up lol).
There were several insights I gained whilst on this solo journey. I felt really connected and part of the universe not separate from it. I became more deeply connected to my intuition and ‘knowing’ and a particular insight about truth and happiness.
There is an unconscious belief collectively that making yourself a priority is selfish. But is it really?
What are we teaching our children and others if we always make other people’s happiness more of a priority than our own.
Only when we can make ourselves important can we truly give to others because we don’t lack anything.
This does not mean we try to not make others important but we should always come first!
On my way out of the solitude in the bush I became anxious probably because I am super sensitive to other people’s energies but also because I was only just learning to truly appreciate that we really don’t need anyone to feel complete. Of course relationships and friendships are so important for our growth and I LOVE connecting with people but also can appreciate being on my own which years ago I could never have dreamed that to be true.
So would I do it again? Absolutely. In a heart beat. In fact I am already thinking and planning what to do next.